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Both sides now

He was so busy looking at either side of the medal
that he lost track of the medal itself

– James Steerforth ( © 2008 )

This aphorism-like thingy came to me this morning as I was about home from my morning walk.

I’d practiced looking at the down side in the early morning, half awake, half dazed, half still immersed in some drawn-out, blurry dream about my ability/inability to participate in this world.

The title came as an afterthought and is, of course, a reference to the song by Joni Mitchell:

I’ve looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It’s life’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know life at all …

Here she is, performing “Both Sides Now” in 1970:

The breezes of summer enlaced with a grim design

When I read Totally Optional Prompts‘ request for summer poems, a line from Richard Fariña’s The Children of Darkness immediately came to my mind – hence this somber summer ballad with its grim design in place of something from my own pen.

A song that might apply to the Iraq war just as much as it did to Vietnam when it was composed…

Children of darkness

Now is the time for your loving, dear,
And the time for your company
Now when the light of reason fails
And fires burn on the sea
Now in this age of confusion
I have need for your company.

It’s once I was free to go roaming in
The wind of the springtime mind
It’s once the clouds I sailed upon
Were sweet as lilac wine
So why are the breezes of summer, dear
Enlaced with a grim design?

And where was the will of my father when
We raised our swords on high?
And where was my mother’s wailing when
Our flags were justified?
And where will we take our pleasures when
Our bodies have been denied?

For I am a wild and a lonely child
And the son of an angry land
Now with the high wars raging
I would offer you my hand
For we are the children of darkness
And the prey of a foul command.

– Richard Fariña

(from Reflections in a Crystal Wind, released in 1965)

This song was also recorded by Fariña’s famous sister-in-law Joan Baez.

In the following video, it is performed by Janette Michaels, Gib Sosman and Deborah Pine at the 1984 Climax Festival.

When we are most near

– James Steerforth

A poem pretty much in the vein of Gertrude Stein written using Shuffle Words. As proposed by read write prompt #33.

Dark sky

Nightmare grey
on a summer day

Zeus’ rolling percussion,
hiss and flash

Then the onset of rain,
deliverer from torridity

– James Steerforth

Several melodies for One Single Impression. An accurate account of weather events.

A mother’s words for her 388 year-old son

“Your frequent visits will pay off someday.”
“Are you sure, ma? I’ve been seeing Daisy for more than thirteen years now. Every Wednesday I take her flowers.”
“Her heart is bound to open up to you, Beal.”
“Once she asked me to follow her to the back of the house.”
“See? A good sign.”
“That was at the beginning. She showed me the compost bin where she dumps my flowers.”
“Not such a good sign. But you’re a good man, a decent man, Beal, and she knows it deep inside. She’ll learn to value you.”
“Sometimes I think it’s the fact that I have hooves.”
“Nonsense! That’s superficial. She sees right through that.”
“But what about my tail?”
“Others wish they had one.”
“And my pointy furry ears?”
“She’ll yearn to tickle them eventually.”
“And the orange fire in my eyes?”
“Now I’m a little worried about that. You got that from your father, who also glowed in the dark. You might try keeping them half shut. Downcast, sort of.”
“Ma, will I ever win Daisy?”
“You will, Beal, you will. There’s time yet. – That’s a promise from your good old mom, Lizzy B. Elzebub.”

– James Steerforth ( © 2008 )

Having some demonic fun with frequent, open and someday from 3WW XCI.

My heart, my heart

My heart, my heart
don’t lie to me
as you’ve done
in the past

Or maybe you didn’t
lie to me –
you heard a song
and misunderstood
the words

– James Steerforth

For Totally Optional Prompts. The prompt ‘reflections on the primary’ did not sound a string, but I happened to write this.

Young …


… and a bit intimidated by the world.

In the meantime he’s discovered the joys of meaningful thumping, chewing on cables and pulling down toilet paper from the roll. My daughter’s one and only bunny boy.

Posted for ‘Pets’ at One Single Impression.

Until my darkness goes

More lyrics – this time an all-time gem from the Rolling Stones a propos the theme of ‘night’ given by Sunday Scribblings. The Youtube live video below shows the band in their very young days with Brian Jones on sitar – much the way the songs sounds on Aftermath.

I seem to have had lots of night in my life in the last few years, so I can fully sympathize. I want my colors back…

– James Steerforth

Paint it black

I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes
I see a line of cars and they’re all painted black
With flowers and my love both never to come back
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
Like a newborn baby it just happens every day
I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door and it has been painted black
Maybe then I’ll fade away and not have to face the facts
It’s not easy facing up when your whole world is black

No more will my green sea go turn a deeper blue
I could not foresee this thing happening to you
If I look hard enough into the settin sun
My love will laugh with me before the morning comes

I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes
I wanna see it painted, painted black
Black as night, black as coal
I wanna see the sun blotted out from the sky
I wanna see it painted, painted, painted, painted black

(Written by Mick Jagger and Keith Richards, released in 1966)

Freedom

Freedom – what a mighty word. I usually feel overwhelmed when contemplating to write about such complex things. But then again, something new, meaningful and not merely personal can be said about them – or sung – with a surprisingly light mind as in the following lyrics by Grace Slick. This song is on Jefferson Airplane’s 1989 reunion album. No performance seems to be available on Youtube.

Freedom

Oh I know they say someday time will show me
How to be so cool someday but what about right now
Please someone tell me what do I do while I’m waiting
Waiting to be so cool – someday

I know I’m not alone you know just how I feel
We both know the rules but who really knows
How to play this game?
No one will always win, good losers hide the pain
They say everything’s fine
No one will hear them complain

But behind those smiles, so much purple rain
It’s a wonder anybody ever comes out sane but they do
And freedom it’s all up to you
When you’re by yourself you get that silent noise
Inside your mind, all the party boys trying to fill up
All the empty holes, don’t let one be her soul

Freedom now you’re on your own
Freedom or does it really mean you’re just all alone
Freedom either way it’s gonna take you home
It just takes you by the hand and says
Now it’s time to grow

So my friend you’re gonna be alright
Seems like it’s all uphill
But then that’s the only way to get high
Someday your soul is gonna fly
But don’t look back ’cause that’s a waste of time
And right now’s the time for you to look inside
And you’ll see love – love has never gone away

Freedom I’ve been standing still so long
Freedom I almost forgot you had a song
Freedom shine your light and let us begin
Just take me in our arms I wanna be free again

(Written by Grace Slick)

Posted for Freedom at One Single Impression.

She is like Mona Lisa

For A.B.

That denied
smile
became uncomfortable
after a while

– James Steerforth ( © 2008 )

Mona Lisa includes deny, smile and uncomfortable from 3WW LXXXIX.

Purple and Orange

Picture of a village in Turkey taken at daylight exposed to purple and orange filters. For Inspire Me Thursday’s Purple and Orange theme.

Tender children of the hurricane

Clad in violet, Rodrigo murmurs
of the blue hammer, and how it, unbridled, and with
precise swiftness, pulses, so that
all butterflies fly up, a brightly colored powder cloud.
And Natasha opens her beet-red mouth and
lark throat, and cries out the cry.
The hurricane is amused by his children.
Seeing Natasha sit demurely, callous
brown feet under turquoise skirt,
he muses complacently that here
the shalvars have not overrun shame.
And the hurricane for a moment releases
from his hairy fist with thick brown fingernails
the cords. What change in the children!
Rodrigo, fire-red and furious, jumps onto the cart
of a cloud, beating the cloud neck with his
coral whip, while Natasha, sublime beauty,
thrusts cold green dragon fire from her eyes,
kicking silver spurs into her giant locust’s sides.
Twitching, the tender children of the hurricane
spread, riding, rage and destruction, the foam of violence,
the sand grinding between one’s teeth, the snow which
numbs, the murderous circle of greedy waters.
Look at Rodrigo’s purple cheeks, Natasha’s hunting
vest blown open, the tender children gone mad,
the fist’s bent brown nails in control.
Where are the butterflies, where is the lark cry, the
quiet hammer of the pulse, the time of powder clouds?
The hurricane pulls back the cords. He laughs
wide-mouthed, showing the gaps between his teeth,
sentimentally squinting his golden brown eyes.

– James Steerforth ( © 1981 and 2008 )

An old poem I remember very well retrieved and somewhat revised for Totally Optional Prompts.

Afire and Aflame

Their beginnings and ends were blurred.

Passion often erased their borders,
while equally hot distrust and fury
erected fences and laid landmines in a flash.

To envious observers there was something
illegally intense to this match of fire and flame.

– James Steerforth

Written with blurred, illegal and match from 3WW #88.

The quitting game

Ever played the quitting game?
It’s the hang-in game reversed:

I quit - you quit,
and there’s nothing left.

It’s a fast one
and works well

with players of like mind.

– James Steerforth

For Sunday Scribblings #112.

What the ring said

What the ring said

The ring said: “You are so beautiful and talented, Parminder!
I still can’t believe that Keira stole your show.”

Posted for Whimsy at Inspire Me Thursday.

Alludes to the fact that Parminder Nagra, the shining star of the delightful comedy Bend It Like Beckham, never made it “big,” while less shining co-star Keira Knightley, whose rise seems to be unstoppable despite usually mediocre acting, did. There is no justice in pictures!

The photo shows Parminder Nagra as Viola/Cesario in an adaptation of Shakespeare’s Twelfth Night.

Life out of focus

Eternal procrastinator,
decisions delayed,

cannot find the edge,
the moment of true feeling

– James Steerforth

Written using delayed, edge, focus from 3WW LXXXVII.

It’s all right, ma

That’s me out here in the darkness
by the rusty ex-Texaco station

That’s me, ma, your son Frank,
who’s only bleeding

Frankie got on the wrong track, ma,
and Frankie got himself shot

And that’s why your son Frankie
is out here in the darkness bleeding

– James Steerforth ( © 2008 )

Written for One Single Impression No. 12: Bleeding, making reference to Bob Dylan’s It’s Alright Ma (I’m only bleeding) from Bringing It All Back Home (1965) and Bruce Springsteen’s Nebraska (1982).

Approximately seven minutes about men and women

Men and women shout at each other in America, Africa, Asia, Australia and even Europe. They kiss each other, smile at each other, flirt with each other, hurt each other anywhere anytime. They multiply and curse each other, they divide and subtract. They enjoy different things and can even bring themselves to agree on things occasionally, but very rarely. There are women who like boxing, and some boxers are said to hit harder when women are around. There are men who like chick movies and women who like horror movies. There are women who like sex more than men, even though the opposite is usually thought to be true. Kenneth Koch wrote a long poem about what men and women do. I think it was about all the places where they might be kissing or doing other things, e.g. California, New Jersey, Nicaragua, Papua New Guinea and Tasmania. Maybe it was only about women, I’ll have to pull the book out of the shelf to find out. Kenneth was very good at lists. This, in a way, is a list of men and women. Believe it or not, I tend to prefer poetry written by women. For example, I much prefer Emily Dickinson to Walt Whitman. I prefer Sylvia Plath to Robert Lowell by about three landslides. But I much prefer John Ashbery to Diane Wakoski. And one of my all-time favorite gladiators is Frank O’Hara. There’s hardly anyone who could swing the club of poetry with more insouciance. And Barbara Guest, who was friends with him and a calmly sparkling star, valued him like a protector.

– James Steerforth ( © 2008 )

Written at a leisurely pace in the prescribed 7 minutes for Café Writing.

Candy says

Posted for Photo Hunt 110 - candy. Not a picture, but a song by the Velvet Underground in video (thank you, Youtube) and text below.

Candy says I’ve come to hate my body
And all that it requires in this world
Candy says I’d like to know completely
What others so discreetly talk about

Candy says I hate the quiet places
That cause the smallest taste of what will be
Candy says I hate the big decisions
That cause endless revisions in my mind

I’m gonna watch the bluebirds fly over my shoulder
I’m gonna watch them pass me by
Maybe when I’m older
What do you think I’d see
If I could walk away from me

(Written by Lou Reed, released on the Velvet Underground’s 3rd album titled The Velvet Underground in 1969. The person referred to is Candy Darling, transsexual star of two Andy Warhol films.)

May

Only sleeting rain after sun
after sun after buttercups
in the fields after bright yellow
bright green

– James Steerforth ( © 2008 )

Hardly symbolic, or is it? Yet it was born in response to Totally Optional Prompts’ request for Symbolic Poetry.

(in variation of Barbara Guest’s June)